Holding hands part 15

Previously on holding hands.

While visiting a penticoastal church bible colege student derek carlson meats lexsi graves. At the service the pastor prophesied that they should be married.  

She embraced it whole heartily.  He had doubts. After a series of indisiveness , lexsi tells him to take some time and decide if he wants this or not. He decides that he does.  

He is now ready to begin a new chapter in there relationship.  She is woried that he might still have doubts.  She is not sure if she should hold back a bit. She really does not want to. 

 The sunday after they got back together, she went to his house a litle bit before the evening service was to begin. She wore a purple top and black skirt and flip flops.  He came out to meet him. He wore a black suit and tie. 

His presence always made her smile.today was no different.  From the first time she met him,she thought that he was very handsome. 

He hugged her. He gave her a light peck on the cheak. “Hi hunie !” she said.  “Hey lex! ” he said. ” how was church thus morning?” she asked. “Doing good.  I went though exodus for survey class. Morning service dad preached on psalm 22. How was your church? ” he asked. “It was good.  The pastor preached on the holy spirit. No penticoastal jokes dere!” she said.

“I would never. Well i might but i will refrain.” he said. “It was realy good.you should listen to it. Its on the web site. ” she said. ” mayby i will. ” he said. She chuckled. 

“Ready to walk over to the church?” he asked. “Sure!” she said. He took her hand. ” so your preaching tonight?” she asked. “That is corect. I just have to decide what i am preaching on. Im kidding.  I had it all writen on Wednesday.  ” he said.

“You usualy have surmon ideas on note cards dont you. You just have to decide which one to go with dont you?” she asked. “You have caught on to my methods? Yes its true. Sometimes i merge several ides into one.  ” he said.

“I am excited to hear you preach tonight. ” she said. ” thanks.  I always look forward to being able to preach the word. ” he told her. 

No one at his church besides his immediate family knew that they had been on a break. They had noticed that they acted differently then they had before. 

Now they were back.  They enjoyed each other. It was clear and evident. There love for eachother led to love for others. Tonight they were happy. This was clear. 

Derrek preached on being restored to a relationship with God folowing a setback.  He started with the fall of Adam and eve. He discussed david’s fall and he discussed the return of the captives under Nehemiah and ezra. He discused Romans 8 and first john two. He discused the eternal esate. He discused how we should strive to be closer to the lord as we look froward to one day having christlikeness. 

Lexi was taking notes as fast as she could. There was so much hear. She was writing notes copying what he said as well as fast as she could.  She also wrote some of her thoughts. She would relisten to it off the website. 

The last two weeks had been hard on her. It took a toll on her. Tonight this surmon reminded her why she wanted to marry him. This confirned in her mind his call to ministry and her call to be his wife.  Her ministry was inter twined with his. 

She knew he worked hard on this. This was on  his heart. God has imparted on him wisdom. He was sensitive to the things of the lord. He had Godly wisdom. He felt a burden to impart this to others. 

After the service, she went to him. “I realy liked your message.  ” she told him. “Praise the lord. It is something i feel strongly about.  ” he told her. “I can tell. ” she said.

He talked to various people in the church. Then after everyone had left. He and lexi walked back to his parents house. They sat on the porch as was there custom.  

“So what is our time table? ” she asked. “Well i am a jr in college.  So are you. This is early november. We probably should complete our college traning. I am thinking the very earliest would be after graduation. The earliest is a year and seven mouths.  Somewhere after that. ” he said.

“Ok. Thats sounds reasonable.  ” she responded.  “Are you ok with that?” he asked.  “Well i want to mary you tomorrow.  I know we have to have a time of courting.  I agree. We need to get to know eachother. We need to go through marriage counseling.  Yes. That sounds reasonable.  I just wanted to find out where you are. “She said. 

“What would your time table look like?” he asked. ” realistically yes. I think sometime after graduation. I would like it be not too long after graduation.  I understand it might need to be a bit later. That is a reasonable time frame. I would not want it much beyond two years from now. That i gues is a preference.  ” she said.

“I understand that. I definently do. I agree with that.  I dont want it to go beyond two years from now. ” he said.

“So what is your time frame for ministry?” she said. “Right now i am an unoficial asistent pastor,youth pastor etc. My dad is mentoting me. I want to start churches. I am not sure if i want to pastor an excisting one first or find an unreached area and start a church. Dad started a church from scratch then did it two more times.  I hold a lisence to preach that is renewed every year. I want to become ordained.  In independent Baptist you go before an ordination council that consist of pastors curent or retired. The church votes on it baised on thr recommendation of the council. I might want to start a church on behath of gospel baptist. A kind of missionary pastor.  We could do it independently as well. ” he said.

“It sounds like you have given it a lot of thought. Would you want to get maried before becoming a pastor? ” he asked. “That is what i am thinking. If not they would be close together. I am open to pastoring an excisting churcg first but i feel called specifically to church planting. I gues my next phase of ministry is getting maried. ” he said.

“Thats sound reasonable.  ” she told her. “What are your thoughts on time table of ministry?” he asked. “I agree with you. That is a sound plan. I am glad i know your thinking on this. I am pleased that you have it well planned out. ” she said. 

“Are you ok with being a baptist pastor’s wife?” he asked. “I think i am. I think i have the gifts talents and abilities to be an efective pastor’s wife. I sing, i played several instruments including the piano. I have been told i have the gifts of encouragement.  I like to desiple. As for being a baptist pastor’s wife i am not sure about that. I have to pratice staying still during a church service. That might take some work. ” she admitted. 

He chuckled. ” i dont think i have ever seen you sit still. ” he said.”no you probably have not. I will work on that.  ” she said. “Can i watch you work on that?” he asked. 

She gently poked him. “Your one to talk dere. You dont dance or raise your hands but you nevet sit still. “She remarked.  ” true. ” he said. 

“You think i can be a good Baptist pastor’s wife?” she asked. He smiled.”absolutely.  You will be an amazing pastor’s wife.  ” he said. She smiled. “Thanks.  I will definently aspire to that with the help of the holy sprit. ” she said. “I know you will. I have full confidence in that. The lord has begun a good work in you. He will complete it on the day of christ. ” he said. 

“I know he will do the same for you. ” she said.  ” thank you lex. ” he answered. 

He walked her to her car. “Hey i have clases tomorrow morning.  You want to stop by hear tomorrow morning before clases?” he asked. “Yea. Sounds great. I will see you then.” she said. He kissed her on the cheak. They hugged. He watched her leave.

Next up

Derek and lexi get more involved in each others world. 

Only a matter of time part ten

Previously on a matter of time.

Kevin and a group from a fundamental baptist college come to aid a new church plant. There he meets a penticoastal naimed becky. 

Despite a difficult start, becky and kevin becane friends. At first she waa reluctent to date him, she changed her mind. 

He went to find his sister. “You look happy! ” sarah remarked. “I am. I don’t get it but i really like her. I am going to call her dad and ask him for permison to formerly court her. ” he told her. “I am happy for you.  I know you wanted this to happen for a while. ” she said. 

“I realy have. I realy think that she might be my future wife.  It does not totaly make sense. Perhaps it does not have to. ” he said. “Perhaps it does not. I am happy for you too. I realy am. ” sarah said.  “Thanks sarah. ” he said. 

“I am glad to see like this. I really am. I knew someday you would find someone.  I figured it was only a matter of time. Never thought it would be a penticostal girl. I realy like her never the less. ” sarah said. “Thanks i do too. ” he said. 

Becky went home and called her dad. “Hi dad. ” she said. ” hi becky. ” he said.”look dad i wanted to give you heads up that you will probably get a call from a young man tomorrow or in the next couple of days!” she told him.

“Is this about what i think it is pumpken?” her dad asked. ” i am afraid so dady. ” she admited. ” do you want me to say yes?” he asked. “I do. I realy like him. He is in bible school. He wants to be a pastor. He is hevily involved in a church. ” she told him. 

“He is a Baptist isn’t he?” he asked. “Yes he is.” she answered. “Well at least he is not a punk rocker i suppose or a presbiterian. You like him?” he asked.

“I realy do. He is a really sweet guy. ” she said. “No one has called me before asking permision to court you. Is there a sugnificance to that?” he asked. “I realy think there is. ” she told him. ” i had a feeling that was the case. ” he said. 

“Will you say yes?” she asked. He laughed and said ” ok!” he said.  “Thanks dady. ” she said. 

She never not expected that this would be how today would go. She remembered this day aw a huge turning point for her life. It was not just for her life but his as well. The begging of them moving closer to being a family.  This was when it realy started to take shape. 

He was nervous for the next day.  He was nervous about talking to her farther. He was also excited. Things were starting to take shape in a way he never thought posible. He was excited about that. 

He fell asleep imaging his life with her. There life together. He was excited about God would do with and though them. 

The next morning keven was a little preoccupied.  He was very qiet at breakfast. “Hi kev. Is everything ok?, pastor resse asked. “Yes it is. I am going to call Becky’s farther and ask his permison to date her. ” he responded. 

“Oh. I remember caling Tiffany’s farther. I was so nervous. I stil get nervous thinking about it. I am not sure what was harder , the first time i called him or asking him for permison to perpose mariage? Both times i was Prety sure he would say yes. Stil it was Prety nurve racking. ” the pastor said. 

“I have never met him or spoke to him before.  “He told him. “Just be respectfull. Dont be too nervous. This is a positive thing. Perental involvement is a good thing.  Dont swet this too much kev. I am sure it will be fine. ” pastor rease said. 

He waited til later on in the morning. He took a breath and dieled the number. “Helo this is pastor mike. ” he said. “Hello pastor this is kevon wakefield.” he told him.

” yes i have been expecting your call. Becky told me you might call. ” the pastor said. “I am calling to ask your permission to formerly court your daughter. ” he told her. 

Pastor mike had a reputation for being a bit of a prankster. He was tempted to have a little fun with this.he decided that that would not be fair. He decided to be on his best behavior at least for on this occasion. 

“Well! I apreciate you calling me. I see no reason not to say yes. You have my permission.  ” he said.”thank you sir. I apreciate that. ” he told the older man. “I am looking froward to meeting you in person. ” the pastor said.

“As am i.” the younger man said . Despite there theological differences, kevin and his future father in law got along famously.  They became very close. They enjoyed each other’s style of humor. Kevin learned how to navigate though his pratical jokes. 

He was so excited after he talked to her dad. He sent a relationship request to becky. He put as a message to her that he had his constent to court her. She saw the mesege while on her break from the flower shop. She clicked yes on the face book request. She knew he would say yes. She was still excited now that it happened. 

It started to feel real. It sank it that sje wod one day marry this man. Despite her fears and concerns she was happy about it.  She was really happy about it. 

Kevin called his dad later that day. “Hi dad. ” he told him. ” hi kev “his dad said. “I called Becky’s dad. I got his formal permission to date her.”he said.”your mom and i thought that might be coming. Congradulations son.”he said. 

“Thanks.  I am prety excited myself”he said. “She seemed like a nice girl. We were  inpresed when she came over. “Dad said. “I really like her. “He said. “Your mom and i can tell.”he said. 

He texted her later. “Hi hunnie,do you want to go out for dinner tonight? “He asked her. She texted back.”yes!” with a series of explination points. 

She got out of work at five.  She changed into a pink t shirt and skirt and flip flops. She then waited for him to arive. She huged him. She held on to him for.  few minutes. 

At the restaurant.  “I am really excited for us.”she said. “I am too. I want you to know that i want to work all this out together. I am not a dictator.  I am not a my way or the highway kind of guy. I want us to be an independent baptist family. I want you to be fully persaded in your mind. I want try to undermine your view on tounges. I want you free to be your best for God. I know that that is your wish as well. “He said.

“”I trust you . i meen that. I know that you love the lord. I know you love me.”she said. 

“This is not going to be easy. I think we both know that. This may be one of the hardest things we ever do. I firmly beleve that the lord has brought us togather. I know if we submit to him,we can make this work. “He said. 

“I am thought that for a while myself. I was afraid. Its scary. I just wanted to run form it. I wish that i had it all together. This is a bit of a slip up for me.  I had had a personal revival right before i went to college. I have taken a few steps back. That was not how i wanted ot to go. I wanted to have it together and then to meet you. “She said. 

“I know God is working in your life. I know your sensitive to the things of the lord. I am sure he has begun a good work in you and will complete it. Your not afraid of rebuke or introspection.  We are never going to be one hundred percent this side of eternity. The lord wants us to grow. I think when we beleve we are at our worse is when he says ‘ok i can use you now. ‘ “he said 

“You seam to have it all together. “She said. “If only that were true. I a not eve close . i fought with the lord before i made the decison to bible school. I felt a burden to start this misson trip hear. I wanted to work  at a camp that i have worked at for a few sumers. I wanted to work at the camp . it would  have been my fouth sumer there. I had  a fruitfull ministry there. That was my comfort zone.  I knew this was where i should be. I almost did not come hear. I know about struggle. I know about the drive to compromise.   I understand it. None of us are immune to it. We are all siners saved by grace. ” he told her. 

“I know that. At the time what i was doing made total sense. I did not see it as sin. I do now. I am weary from it. ” she said. 

“I understand.  I have been there. I cant believe you think i am this super christian. I am not. You know i never told anyone thar story. I realize from this trip that i love church planting. I love preaching.  I am excited to see this church starting to be established and built up. I also realize that i know who my wife is now. ” he said. 

She smiled in a way he had never seen her smile before. “Do you have any doubts about us?”she asked.  “No i dont. I believe with all my heart that the lord brought us togather.  ” he said. 

She smiled. That was the moment that she decided that she would commit herself to the lord and to him.she was now ready to comit to all of this. 

After dinner they walked hand in Hand to the car. He knew she was different.  This was a turning point for her. He drove her home. 

He hugged her. Both hung on to eachhother for a few seconds. “I love you. ” she told him. He smiled.”i love you beck. ” he said. 

She walked to the apartments.  He drove off. Things started to make sense to him. 

End of part ten.

Next up.

Becky gets more involved in his church. He gets involved in hers. There worlds start to murge. 

Holding hands part 14

Saterday arived. He had to give lexi an answer today. He finaly made up his mind definitively  on saterday morning. He prayed about it. He was peace. 

Lexi had incisted that whatever he decided, it had to be definitive.  It had to be the final answer. He had agreed.  He was ready. 

 Saterday afternoon he called her. Lexi was in her room. She did not want to answer the phone but she did. She answered the phone. “Hey dare!” she said. 

“Hi lex. Do you want to go to church tonight with me?” derrek asked. “Yes.of course. Do you have an answer?” she asked. “I do. ” he said “i want to hear it tonight on our way to church ok?”she asked. ” ok.” he said.

“I will see you then. ” she said. “You got it.” he said. Then they hung up. She did not do much that Day. She did not have a lot of ambition.she felt weary.  She spent much of her day in her room. 

She changed from a tank top and pajama pants to a yellow short sleve dress.  She put on flip flops. She would wait for him to arive. 

He always wore a suit and tie to his church. At youth group that he was a leader at, he wore a polo shirt. He usualy dressed down wgen he attended her church. He wore a dress shirt and jeens.  He almost changed to khakies but decided he looked fine. 

He said good bye to his family. He got into his car. He drove to her apartment. She was emotionaly exhausted.  She was not her usualy bubbly exerburent self. She kinda dragged herself to do anything.  

She often time waited for him on her steps but not today.  She was stil inside when he pulled in. She just did not have a spring in her step today.she opened the screen door and walked to the car.

“Look if the answer is no lets just part ways and that will be that!” she said “what? No the answer is yes. I am in!” he said. 

There was a single tear that ran down her cheak. ” really?” she asked. “Yes. Really hunnie!” he answered. He wraped his arms around her and hugged her. He had ment it to be a quick hug. She would not let him go. She held on to him for a bit. 

“Ok im ready!” she said.he started the car. The car left his driveway. “Your totaly in. Your one hundred percent in this? ” she asked. “Yes i am. I dont totaly understand it. I do believe the lord had brought us together. I believe the lord is glorified by us being together. I believe that saten wins if we are not. That does not totaly make sence to me but i do believe that.” he told her. 

“Ok i just had to make sure!” she said. The car arived at thr church parking lot. He parked the car. ” hey do you want to go out for cofee at our usual spot after the service?” she asked.” yes! Absolutely! ” she said. 

She realy wanted to just sit and talk to  him.  She felt like she had a lot to talk about. She felt like they really needed to talk and talk soon.they needed to have a deep and meaningful conversation.   They had a lot to figure out and work out. 

They both got of the vehicle. She took her hand. They walked hand in hand into the church. ” i like the outfit tobight. Jeens and dress shirt works for you . ” she said. ” thanks. ” he said.

They went to the sanctuary.  They sat next to tom and denise and there family. “It is good to see you two together. ” tom said. They smiled at him and then at eachother.   

During the worship time she raised one hand. She would not let go of him.she felt insicure that day. She was not leting him go. 

He sang along.he knew most of the songs now.  He would not dance. Some times he found himself swaying but when he realize it he stoped. She laughed st him. She loved it. He was the funniest when he was not trying.  She found his old fashoned ways to be endearing.  

She observed that he was reserve. He was pasive. He was traditional. She believed that she could bring him out of her shek. She did not want to change him . she liked how he was. She wanted him to stay conservitive in most things.  She wanted him to calm down in orthers. She was becoming king james prefered.she wore pants but saw that dreses or skirts were probably more famine.  She hoped he would moderate on other isues like music. She hoped he could go to a set point on these isues. She did not want to change him just calm him down on a few isues. 

He watched her. She was silly at times. Totally the oposite of him in many words. She seemed to be bold.she had little inhibitions.  She never sat stil.  He pictured her always dancing always swaying.  Always with a song on her heart if not on her lips. The perpetual optimist. Almost poly anish but with a touch of realism. Perhaps they were even eachother out he thought. 

During the worship time, he wondared if the lord could realy take him and her two people who seemed hopelessly and terminaly incompatible and make them truely one flesh? Then it dawned on him that he already had. 

After the service ,they went to there usual place for cofee. She was fairly qiet. “Are you upset with me?”he asked. “A little. She answered. 

“I kinda figured. “He answered.”i love you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.  I am a little upset with you. Why did you drag this our for two weeks? This should not have taken you five minutes.  Either you want to be with or you dont.if you dont feel it, you dont feel it.” she said.

“Its not that simple. I want to be with yoy.i had to make sure it was God’s will. ” he said.”you baptist. Its all logic. Platonic Christianity.  It is anlitical. It is all acdemic. Do you not feel anything?  “She asked. 

“This is the bigest decison of our lives. Logic has to come into it. ” he said.”you canot dismiss feelings entirely as well!” she told her. ” i know that.  ” he said.

“I want you to want this. I want you to want to be with me. I want you to blow you away. I want you to love me as much as i love you! Your too buisy running statistical anylises to see the forest from the trees!” lexi told him. 

“I do love you. I do want to want to be with you. Thats who i am. I am anytical. Mayby i do psycho analize everything .  ” she told him. 

“”I know you would perfer i be if.b. i have been completely honest with you. I wont change my views on tonges unless i am convinced by the bible.  I am wiling to go to your church and embrace most of independent baptist. Is it not enough i can go to your church all the time and go to myine on Saterday and mid week. ” she said. 

” no i dont mind how we have it! Now” he said. “Look your aloud to tell me how you feel?” she said. ” this is how i feel. ” he told her. ” ok. “She said. 

“Im sory this is not how i wanted tonight to go. I want us to be happy. I want us to enjoy eachother.  ” she said. ” i am happy. I do enjoy you. I do want this. ” he said. 

” are you totaly in? Are you one percent in?” she asked. ” yes absolutely.  ” he answered. ” i am sory.i feel realy insicure tonight. I do trust you. I missed you. These last two weeks were horible. Lets never do this ever again. Ok? Lets be apart like this ! I am upset but i stil love you. I want to know you.  I want to realy know you. Please let me in. Break down those walls of yours ok?” she asked.

“Ok. No more walls. These last two weeks were terible. I agree lets never do that again. I missed you too. ” he said. 

“You were so funny tonight!” she said “me?” he asked. “You were swaying. Well until you realized you realized you were doing it and then you stoped.  It was cute!” she said. 

“You were cute yourself. ” he said smiling. ” how so?” she asked. ” its hard to explain. Your just are. My penticostal preee fiancée! ” he said. ” i like the sound of that. ” she said.  

“Im really sory. I did not consider you like i said. I did not take your feelings into acount. I messed up big time. Im sorry. ” he said. 

“I forgive you. Thank you.”she said.”i did up walls. I gues i only let you get so far. “He said. “No more walls? Will you let me in?” she asked. “Yes i will. No more walls. ” he said. “Ok good. I am not upset anymore. I might have overeacted. These two weeks made me weary. Leta never do this again. Even if its hard lets see eachother every day. In person or phone but lets keep the lines of communication open.”she said.  “Ok agreed “he said. 

“Do you really see us as pre enganged?”she asked. “I do. Do you see see is that way? “He asked. She smiled. “Yes i do. ” she said. 

They left the cofee shop holding hands. They got into the car . There Eyes met. He drove her home. He walked her to het steps.

He hugged her. She held on to him. He kissed her on the cheak.  “I will see you tomorrow hunnie!” she said. “You got it. I love you lex!”he said. “I love you dare!” she said. She went inside smiling.  He drove off. 

He knew how he felt. He knew how much he loved her. He was glad that he had met her. She would change his life, she already had. He believe he changed hers as well. He was excited to begin there life togather. 

End of part 14

Next up 

Derrek and lexi have a lot of heart to heart talks.